today whole day was so sucky. hated everything.
except when mr elfie came to teach us bio.
gosh he is damn funny.
look like my abang sedara by alot.
talk like him.
walk like him.
look at people also like him.
haha.
but some ass say he reminds them of me.
maybe true ah but i am not dat dramatic as him..
though i admit i am drama abit.
haiz.
hu knew being confidant would make me hurt my ownself.
well i guess you guys don't know that i feel very lousy.
i dun get what i want in lyfe and its like all the tyme.
so when i do achieve something i get really happy.
and i am sorry if that comes across as arrogance to some of you.
my lyfe sucks so when i do get something that actually is going my way,
i get excited,maybe too excited bout it.
when i get a chance i grab it. that is my only way to shine.
that was my mindset larh.
so sorry.
i feel so dumb.
maybe i shuld stop trying too hard larh.
i shuld not be to enthu.
well maybe i might not even want to try again larh.
what if i come across as arrogant?
i dun want you ppl to hate me.
i will try not to be so semangat anymore.
the more i try to get atleast some good things in my lyfe,
it always doesn't.

this is no longer a verge of breaking down.

not only have i been broken down but trampled upon and torn apart.

and for you. i will try my best to ask someone to change the blogskin .
if i can't then at most i will delete this blog. and do another one when i am free.
dun worry. i will do it asap.

oh and i have to go back to hq tomorrow for flying.
cca before ccac.
and i really dun know why am i trying.
seriously
give up already.
dun kill my own self.
it will be suicide.