was supposed to go out mit me sedara
but cancel. shyt ah.
boring sey at home.
my sister is controlling the damn television.

dun care about my previous post.
it was not meant to get sympathy from anyone.
i just felt so lousy and wanted to relief my feelings.
this is the only way i can let out my feelings.
though the pain that i really feel can never be reflected in a mere post.
i dun have anyone i can really trust to share my problems.
de only ppl i culd trust was my primary school friends.
but they themselves have gone separate ways.
even though they are in the same school,
they are not together.
how sad. what if i were with them.
imagine that.
atleast if i were to face any problems in their school i wud have them.
and they wud not have gone different ways.
but now i feel i am suffering alone. i miss laughing my ass of at their sick and dirty jokes.
atleast they bring joy to my life.
they trust me.
i trust them.
look what has happened to me.
what has happen to them.
why the hell i join this cheapskate school.
i so regret it.
when i cry, they dun think that i am like a wimp or anything.
they console me. they are so the best human beings in my lyfe.
and hey why must you cry? this thing should not be hurting you at all.
you are having it your way.
you decided on how things shuld be.
i am not blaming you.
its just me.
i feel lousy.
i know you have a better lyfe.
so enjoy it.
i remembered how they actually shared their problems and horny jokes with me.
how ms tan is always biased and treated us so much better than the rest.
how the whole class motivated one another.
how they supported me and congragulated me when i was ferst in class.
hard to believe? i actually won over some people from the better classes. not the best classes but the better ones.
well thats lyfe for me.
good things always never last long.