Labels: i love you and i hate you.

hey bastard.



sissy stupid fucking ugly bastard





ferstly your head is full of shit coz you did not even tell me you want to help to organize.your puny fucky shitty brain seriously is betraying you gay shit!



bodoh nyer babi!



hey those ppl who talk about me ryte they got no chibai to say to my face. what idiotic asshole. that is what you should be name fucking bitch. kau pikir kau banyak nyer lawar per sial? pergi mampos lar.



and YOU you know that ppl call you faggot ish ryte? one of them happen to be my cousin ryte.

he asked me why i became friends with you. i said you are nice and it doesn't matter what ppl say as long as i know you are my friend its ok. but i swear i regret every word of it.





what's so bad about khairi? you fucking bastard. i went through my whole secondary 1 life in fear and unhappiness ok. he made me feel bad. and when i was friends with shaikah and thst whole incident tht you insulted me remember?



sad to say even hanafi was dumb enough to fall for his trap. you too remember?



not to say i nevr tried to forgive all of you ,i did forgive you guys ryte? even khairi but his mistakes were continuosly done.



you said you were helping me? come on la. you? help me? piss off la.





and it is not wrong for you to decide when you wanna go to school you asshole. did i say it was.

hey faggot, we arranged to meet ryte? i called you and you say anything la. when you sms me you say they all wanna go at 9.45. that was all you smsed . nthing mentioned that you are going with them and not me. and we were supposed to choose the combo together? remember? or that shitty brain of your push that aside?

it wasn't me forcing you to meet. i told you and you had no objections.



what an excuse. you wanted to wish happy berthday to a certain someone. reality check you can sms ok. you did not even remember when it was my berthday not denying you still got me a gift. that reminds me. i will pass yours to you on monday when we check our classes thing.



so next time i tell you to meet somewhere and then i go with some one else. pls understand la.

fuck you. and i nvr say i was a millionare but thanks anyway for saying that.moron.

oh so you have been putting up with my attitude since last year izit? as if you fucking perangai so good. fuck you!!!!! go finger your ownself laar.
and i did not mention i was an angel.
i know i am not perfect but i never betray a fren to go with another. i have a brain to inform someone of changes earlier.and to think i felt sorry for you when you are not in ccac. i play along with your behaviour. i know u nvr ask me to but i play along. hey and any idea how ppl look at me when i hang out with you. what my cousin say when he knew that the guy he is disgusted by happens to be my bestfren. i dun mind. i ignore them. i know u nvr ask me to but i still did it anyway. your attitude ain't perfect dude. cermin lar sikit

after u insult khairi you ask me what is wrong with him. what a fucking hypocrite you are? go to hell.and khairi nvr take revenge? that is because he started it you bastard. you should have known this already. what is wrong with you?he spat in my bottle and did many stuffs. what i am doin is not as bad as what he did.


ppl hate me. i know.

AS IF PPL DON'T HATE YOU????REALITY CHECK MORON!

turn down the drama!


i think i am someone who has nth to my name except frens which i am so wrong.
me spoil your mood? you bloody pig. u don't know the half of it.


and i am not like you. needing the spotlight. i dun need ppl tp praise me. and neither am i an idiot who self praise but self proclaims that i don't like self praise. geee....


so i am very irritating, many hate me, i am an eye-sore,i am worst then khairi.

hey fucker. you are sucha moron in you own world.



and as you mentioned those who said i am self centered....excuse me? this fat ass you are surpporting is worst then me. sedar tak?

sorry for ever intruding your life and sorry for ever being a part of it.
since i am a fucky fren.
you are so worst. confiding in other frens.sucha baby! gimme a break. what adek? nak complain.kat diorang. tkdr bola kepe?


urghh you















idiot

since when did you and i are planning it?
did i ask for your help?
and from your post, i can tell that you wanna plan the whole thing.
you did not put we decided or we have not decided but instead you put "I" have not decided.
so since when did it become about you?
i do something at my blog you copy.
i do at class blog then you copy.
what is it that you want?
you want to organize izzit?
well too bad i did it ferst but you could like discuss with me or something.
the way you put it at the post is as if its your fucking idea.
you go and see your own post now see if its fucking rude.
i plan something and you ruin it.
you take control.
who the hell in the fucking world do you think you are.
when someone called you a faggot i defended you.
then you ask me why people call you a faggot?
have you questioned yourself? look at urself?
the way you are.
and i swear if you look at someone who behaves like you, you would say he IS a faggot.
but since i know you quite well i dun think you really are.
i wanted to meet you today to discuss but in the end you wanna go with the gerls.
so its your own actions and decisions.
who do you really think are your friends now.
hanafi & me no longer mean anything to you?
you want to be a khairi?
i try so hard to keep us together but you don't feel it right.
then you get fed-up at khairi.
you are acting like him, you know that?
you reminded me of your present but did you come today to meet us?

seriously

fuck you.

GOOD TO SEE MANY OF YOU LOVE TWO SIX!!


touched,love and sadness are the words to describe what i feel.





cry all you want. if its the only way it can make you feel better.
but for me, after crying so much i still miss all of you.
all the wacky moments.


shit lar. so fast sec 3? i am in a shock. i feel as if i am still sec 1 or something coz i haven't got enough time with my class. why is this happening? stupid fucking education system!!!!

Labels: its nice to know we had it all

hi guys!


our time with our classmates are coming to an end.

even those irritating faces ,

i have come to treasure

because they have been

and are a part of my life.

its awfully dreadful to part.

all we have left of each other

are bittersweet memories.






enough of my sad poem. haha. i did dat by myself and it doesn't rhyme but who cares? it was from the bottom of my heart.

i remembered.......(flashback)

when it was the last day of primary school, i met up with raihana for the last time we would possibly meet. she started crying. i was like consoling her telling her not to cry. but suddenly i started weeping like a baby and i ran to the toilet to control myself. i did not know why i cried that bad. after that i was walking home and suddenly, along the way, i cried again! because to me friends are my most important asset and motivation. though at times they suck blood.

so i entered unity with a mindset that i had no friends it was so scary. at times i was afraid to go to school. but soon i bonded with my classmates. and there were camps, inter-class competition,story-telling,swimming , class outings and etc. they had been part of my life without me even realising it.

i knew this day would come eventually but i did not know how painfull and heart-breaking it was. i did not know how much i actually appreciated everyone of them.

the hug one special friend gave me was really meaningful. i am so going to miss seeing their faces,hearing the voices and rushing to do homework in the morning.

on friday when bart was going to china i knew it would be the last time i would see him in class. though he is kind of arrogant but he was my classmate.

the system is just stupid. they break us up in primary school from our primary school friends and put us into secondary education. and make us bond with our new classmates. only then to tear us apart again. hey morons! there is only so much of emotional roller caoster an adolescent can take.

erghh.

its going to be tough for me.



i will miss all 2/6 peeps.



i am not sure if i am able to adapt.




loosing a girlfriend is not as heart breaking as this because a class like 2/6 its just too rare.




goodbye my friends.

hello!

sorry neber update for so long.

busy ah.

moi granddaddie in hospital..

today oso never go to school.

go take care of him.

i got 14 uncles and aunties. 1 passed away in 2002 so left with 13.

got 40 cousins. so we all will take turns to jager during day or during the night.

so understand, understood and understoodeddooded.

but not all of these people take care.

some are hopeless.

some take shift but got jobs what so i finish exams so they ask me ponteng.

anyway 1 only got one grandparent left. dapat pahala tau.

well alot has been happening lately.

some i prefer not to publish in this post.

but the past few days of mine were spent in hospital.

btw if you might have known i like david archuleta. his song crush is great!



ok den take care peeps!

ok a quick one!


got adik angkat.but all i have of them now are just photos and memories. sad!i will elaborate more if i have the time. ok


den exams sucks!


arghhhh.



den malam raya i was at hospital jaga my atuk all the way until next morning about ten plus then i go home. my grandfather in the same ward that my grandma was in when she passed away. same illness.
i was extremely sad when i heard the takbir raya but tahan-ed!

raya was just at home coz no one in my family celebrated. a recent death and my granddad in hospital.

berthdae was super suckish
i waited one year since last year and it went by just like that. the person who suppose to wish me didn't even wish me. ah wadeva fuckers.
continue hatin'
i was awake at the last moments of my berthdae hoping i would...

rubbish man

so the two significant days on my life went by just like that. surprised i did not cry.
fucking lousy year. then got exams. i study lar coz i care about my results.
but seriously lar i was so sad dammit my ferst raya dat was without my grandma. until now i have not felt the raya spirit. and at school people's faces just SUCK BIG TIME! unhappy faces. you chibai! i am the one hu shuld be deprived of that smile not you and yet i force myself to look happy. no mood. everything is just so negative. the aura that i am living in is the worst i have felt.

and later i gotta spend my time in hospital. probably tomorrow and the day after too. then got three suckish and boring paper.

and fast food have become a taboo for me. like what my dear friend said"i am afraid i will be fat" haha. see i always make jokes but you think i am happy? you bitches just don't appreciate your life do you? fuckers . and jalan raya? just kills my mood..









and some say i am lucky to have my bertdae after raya? just the opposite sak!





and ppl pls smile. you guys are not making life easier . i just wanna see everyone happy even though my life has been depressing. and ppl ask why i dun wanna get married. actually coz i am afraid the child will have the kind of life like mine. i dun wanna bring the child to the world and guarentee it will be happy. maybe i will just adopt. i like kids just that i dun wanna be responsible if he or she suffers. like my life. suckish. and all the FCUKING SLUTS all around. school and home. but school got alot.

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