ok a quick one!


got adik angkat.but all i have of them now are just photos and memories. sad!i will elaborate more if i have the time. ok


den exams sucks!


arghhhh.



den malam raya i was at hospital jaga my atuk all the way until next morning about ten plus then i go home. my grandfather in the same ward that my grandma was in when she passed away. same illness.
i was extremely sad when i heard the takbir raya but tahan-ed!

raya was just at home coz no one in my family celebrated. a recent death and my granddad in hospital.

berthdae was super suckish
i waited one year since last year and it went by just like that. the person who suppose to wish me didn't even wish me. ah wadeva fuckers.
continue hatin'
i was awake at the last moments of my berthdae hoping i would...

rubbish man

so the two significant days on my life went by just like that. surprised i did not cry.
fucking lousy year. then got exams. i study lar coz i care about my results.
but seriously lar i was so sad dammit my ferst raya dat was without my grandma. until now i have not felt the raya spirit. and at school people's faces just SUCK BIG TIME! unhappy faces. you chibai! i am the one hu shuld be deprived of that smile not you and yet i force myself to look happy. no mood. everything is just so negative. the aura that i am living in is the worst i have felt.

and later i gotta spend my time in hospital. probably tomorrow and the day after too. then got three suckish and boring paper.

and fast food have become a taboo for me. like what my dear friend said"i am afraid i will be fat" haha. see i always make jokes but you think i am happy? you bitches just don't appreciate your life do you? fuckers . and jalan raya? just kills my mood..









and some say i am lucky to have my bertdae after raya? just the opposite sak!





and ppl pls smile. you guys are not making life easier . i just wanna see everyone happy even though my life has been depressing. and ppl ask why i dun wanna get married. actually coz i am afraid the child will have the kind of life like mine. i dun wanna bring the child to the world and guarentee it will be happy. maybe i will just adopt. i like kids just that i dun wanna be responsible if he or she suffers. like my life. suckish. and all the FCUKING SLUTS all around. school and home. but school got alot.

Labels: no birtthday. no raya.