greetings to you readers.


friday. had english test. funny things happened. lol

then had cny celebrations. abandoned my class to sit with 2/6 08 ppl.

the show was ok. but the jokes we made about it were even better.

laughed till my throat hurt.


then go solat jumaat.


and then go watch inkheart at causeway.

was nice lar.

then homed.

then yesterday went to a solemnization ceremony at the mosque.

was my mother's friend daughter.

then sharukh and farah were there. at first we were all shy to talk but after a while we talk non-stop. we malu-malu anjing because dah lamer tk jumper. the last time we met was when we all go batam together-gether. and when sharukh became like my brother and his brothers were like jealous and stuff.

farah got into triple science. urgh. not jealous. haha sharukh was laterally transferred into express. good for these people. btw the both of them don't believe i can raise my voice. i know!
that is the first time i heard it too. they think that i very the relaxed ,composed and laidback kinda guy. boy they got me all wrong.


and today i went to causeway again. and i made the yummylicious mushroom cream soup.

i am really bored.

i really miss you.

its not the same anymore . you are there but its like ur not. hmpph.feel like going to airport and eat at popeye and walk walk with special people.
u got someone in ur lyfe.
and me?
all i do is talk to myself.
its all gone isn't it.
u wiped out that bit of memory.
u can but i can't.
and you have 2.
and again,i talk to myself.
i dun get it.


i shall do homework. or shan't i.

omg. so long i never update.

so-the-very-the-sorry.


i miss blogging so much.

but just too shacked these days.

i cannot stop thinking of the little kid from the orphanage.

miss him so very much.

we pretty much connected.

when i was with him , the feeling of not wanting to let him go kept playing in my mind.

really sad lar.

the kids thinks his father will take him home.

i swear i will look for the adik again.

sayang sangat ngan dier.




ok had a few test and tomorrow eng test.


i really dun understand the feeling i am feeling

i just hate what i am going through.


the uncertainty.


the angst.


the doubt.


the sadness.


this turmoil . it just sucks.


when can i be the cheery and just happy me again?
i miss myself alot.

cant have any alone tyme these days.

ohh and sec1 are so lovely and innocent.

their innocence wont last long.




hahs.



btw ppl sucks.



u ppl hu did that sucks.





and i love you.




yes you! buhbye

hi ppl.

tired seyyh.

i will update on yesterday wedding dinner and today. ok? y i ask u seyy.

ok wedding dinner was fun. i help to usher guest to tables.


nothing much to update bout yesterday.more on today.





ok so woke up early and was told to help aunty norjan to carry things from her house to comm centre. i also help kak ira buy macdonalds. see pengantin eat mac in morning. hahaha.

den i tukar to my punjabi baju. all the sedara lelaki wear that.

then i and didi made the last trip down to the cc. i tell him that he confirm never sleep properly and he looked like weird. i was damn right.something happened later on.


then at about 10.30 all the darul ma'wa kids arrived.(orphans) together with the old folks ppl.

we were really sad coz we were reminded of nani and atok. i really tried to hold back my tears because i was with the kids. i alone handle the kids and my aunts with the old folks.


i talk talk with them and i just loved this small kid. so pitiful. so young and innocent. but has no parents. he was struggling to eat. so i feed him lar. btw his name is khairy. but he primary 2 but very short. i peel the prawns and chicken and all that.but i dun want the others to feel neglected so i talk with them. and khairy really loved the kek. for a small guy eating 3 huge slices of cake. then i wash his hand for him and wipe his mouth. i treated him as thought he were my brother. if u guys were there u probably wud do the same. i really love these kids man. next month i am going to darul ma'wa with my mother to see khairy again. so after taking pictures and talking to them i go with them to wait for their bus. luckily the bus took a long tyme. so i play with them somemore. i ask him whether want to follow me home but he say dun wan. he still thinks his parents will come back for him. i was just so heartbroken seyhh. then their bus come and if you see how appreciative they were and how they wave goodbye. its just so sweet. it can make a stone melt. so sad seyy.



so after that the pengantin lelaki come den we all block them until they give us money. hehe. i got money. but then didi suddenly beside me got fits. (its a temporary seizure.the body shakes vigourously and the person will black out for some time.) then all the shitty ass sedara mara all kpo like cibai. all block step mcm paham. bastard. they must let him breath. i know coz he got fits infront of me 2 time before but the last one was when i was in primary school. so only some of us were around him. only those who knew what to do .which included me lor. earlier on i ask him whether he ate his medication coz i know he never sleep well.


then the rest is bla and bla. i still have not do chem homework coz i got no clue how to do.

bye ppl.


sayonara.

school is crap.

i had CE lesson and the teacher asked us what we did wrong in 2008 and how we gonna improve on it in 2009?

there is just too many mistakes in my life. not sure if i can forgive my self. i was already so depressed by that question and she talked about grandparents. making me feel alot more awful. i really really really miss my atok and nani.they did so much for me and whenever i have to go there i would complain. now if i could turnback tyme and re do all this shit.i have lost too many beautiful people that completed my lyfe. people i will probably never get back.

so yesterday was cca open house. memories, both bitter & sweet memories came back when someone talk to me. but truthfully it wasn't her that i wanted to talk to. i was so nervous before the performance. i almost vomitted. hakim saw my face like ass liddat.

the performance was great ah. with the support given by our instrutors, seniors,part mates and friends.appreciated evryone support.while performing i set my eyes not to look at ppl. but i saw just this one person and i was so nervous again.


i will not elaborate wat happens next. read other ppl blog ok?

because after that i rushed my ass back home coz my sedara nak nikah. i bath quickly. change and went to teck whye. near the cc. then after one hour we go to the mosque. seeing my sedara nikah was a fun feeling as the masjid was big and we actually get to see it not like other times.


thats about it.
today got her wedding dinner.
so bye!

HELLO! I LOVE YOU ALL!

hehe. giler sikit.


ok so first day of school. lets elaborate.

before that. i was wondering what schoolbag i wanted to use. i got this really fucking cool billabong commander pack. nice colour too! was wondering if i should use it. but i use my older bag first cause got alot of things to bring and my bag would be to heavy. not that my bag not strong but there is such thing as wear and tear. so wait until teachers collect their book and files and i know exactly what books to bring.

like ryte now i dun even know weda i haf to bring my A Maths book on which week. or whether we are now having ss or history first. so i bring both. so my bag really heavy.i oso dunnoe when to start using my new spectacle.


so in da mornin met up with some peeps at ut mrt. i entertained falah's brother. trying to convince him to join NCC. hehe. jahat seyy aku.


took me and khairi a good 15 mins to find my class. coz it was not where it supposed to be. ass shit!

got some shit ppl in my class. urgh


i got mdm li and mdm kuang as form teachers.


they say for now must sit in register no.
hate it.


urghh. i wanna sit with my friends lar. shit man.


i got some ok teachers for now.


i really hope my malay teacher is cikgu nora.

really really hope.


oh and i made friends with linda.

after school got solat.

then go for PDS. it was ok. atleast better than school.


well thats it.



adios amigos!