school is crap.

i had CE lesson and the teacher asked us what we did wrong in 2008 and how we gonna improve on it in 2009?

there is just too many mistakes in my life. not sure if i can forgive my self. i was already so depressed by that question and she talked about grandparents. making me feel alot more awful. i really really really miss my atok and nani.they did so much for me and whenever i have to go there i would complain. now if i could turnback tyme and re do all this shit.i have lost too many beautiful people that completed my lyfe. people i will probably never get back.

so yesterday was cca open house. memories, both bitter & sweet memories came back when someone talk to me. but truthfully it wasn't her that i wanted to talk to. i was so nervous before the performance. i almost vomitted. hakim saw my face like ass liddat.

the performance was great ah. with the support given by our instrutors, seniors,part mates and friends.appreciated evryone support.while performing i set my eyes not to look at ppl. but i saw just this one person and i was so nervous again.


i will not elaborate wat happens next. read other ppl blog ok?

because after that i rushed my ass back home coz my sedara nak nikah. i bath quickly. change and went to teck whye. near the cc. then after one hour we go to the mosque. seeing my sedara nikah was a fun feeling as the masjid was big and we actually get to see it not like other times.


thats about it.
today got her wedding dinner.
so bye!