hello homosapiens!
well most of you are actually homosexual ryte?
haha. ok

teacher's day was fun. had aces day in the morning.
ccac's had lotsa fun. haha.
good job NICK!
you redeemed us.

then got results. i improve lot. but i can do so much better with more effort.
got the performances.
i only liked the velvet rose and the finale. good job peeps!
den lepak-ed a while and went back to south view with azfar and hanafi.
but we never see our teachers. we went in because we missed the canteen food.
haha. cute ryte? i noe...

den balik mandi ..
tgk televeision den go solat.
after dat rush home to change baju den went to meet hanafi, azfar & khairi..
i wanted to meet at 3 so got more tyme.
but khairi say meet at 2.30 sharp. he say dun want to miss the movie.
but hanafi azfar and me arrange to meet later abit at 2.45 and we nvr tell khairi.
so the three of us arrived at 2.45 but khairi was late.
i call him he saay on the way.
but he havent even reach yew tee.
in the end he reached about 3.05.
that BIG SMARTASS! made us wait for him.
never once when we arranged to meet he come on tyme!
and he was the one who wanted to meet early.
i hate waiting for people. bloody shit!
he think he president ah? kepala mangkuk dier lar sial!
kimak. buat kiter tunggu. babi.
pastu satu sorry pun takder.

den we go and take bus 190 and saw mr khoo. haha. he rock!
den we reach orchard and go to cathay.
hanafi and khairi watch starwars while azfar and me go shopping.
dat movie really not my type. i can cry of boredom.
den when dey finish the movie. after making us wait for very long. that smartass wanted to go walk around the mall. we already walked while waiting for them yet he dun care. show us the face. irritating. darlar pendek! muker mcm babi! bulu kening nak step manernyer gangsta tapi mcm bapok! nak step cute plak tu! kepala otak bnyk nyer besar kepe?sial nyer budak. lagi nak tunjuk muker. mcm aku nak ludah kan sak. azfar pun dah bingit.

den we wanted to go to taka to eat seoul garden. and this was their his idea. and he said he will belanjer to top-up if anyone not enough money. but i did not trust him so i brought money just in-case. and when hanafi and azfar not enough money he never even offered to belanjer them. fucker. hanafi dah menyumpah je sak. dier punyer idea pastu dier tak nak tolong hanafi ngan azfar. buat kiter gi all the way to taka and this! bastard.

he actually told us he brought $200 to pay for us. so hanafi pinnied his hopes. but i knew hecannot be trusted so i brought. urghhh. irritating. den he say go to far east to eat the nasi pattaya. cheaper. i hate that place. in terms of the food place ah. but he act smart and made us go the other ends of orchard. i knew he went to the wrong place and when i found the correct way he say" ah yes aku dah tau dah.mak aku dulu kerja kat borders jadi i know this place well"
dalam hati aku, aku dah maki dier sial. kimak. punyer lar naik akunyer darah. boleh ludah diernyer muke yang mcm pantat babi lar sak!
dah tu biler kat far east step manyer kaya nak step beli crumpler pastu ketawa kat aku.
eh pala **** kau lar. aku tak hairan. mak bapak kau bagi kau duit pasal aper. bukan kau baik. bukan kau pandai. pasal nak gantikan kasih sayang yang diorang tak boleh bagi! pastu nak aksyen! abeh biler kat seoul garden tk nk tlg diorang.

after mkn we went home. in the bus we were telling ghost stories. but that bugger was not with us. azfar told one that was spine tingling. and it was already late. i was scared.haha
but i scared oso i just walk one. because night walk i overcome the challenges den i become more braver in overcoming my fear. but as i was walking hanafi to his block got some chinese funeral and got bell sia. scary. den hanafi call his father to come down and fetch him. XD

den i just went home. crash and burn.



den in the morning wake up. met up wit sarah but she was late. atleast she tell me she will be late and she nvr say she wanted to meet early. so its ok.
den went HQ. got alot of the clts today coz got some meeting.
had an enriching chat with someone. he is really a nice person.
i am definitely going to miss him.
someone with his calibre and standard is rare.
with someone like him to have done so much and now going away,
its such a miss.
i hope and wish that he will comeback when he is free and impart his knowledge to us.
i truly will miss him.
if you happen to read this, good luck for your voyage and may you excel there as well.

den i went home early lar. was really sad. i wanted to hang there for a while more but got tahlil.
on the way back with the swiss cottage khairul i was tearing a little. because i will really miss him. he is the figure that i feared.but i am actually appreciating all he has done. he is a good man. good luck. and pls comeback often sir.


so i went back and changed and rushed to the tahlil and my grandad house.
bacer2 den eat. after eating, played with my anak sedara.
den played with adam for a while. he is like less than one year old. i was carrying him den i just tepok him and sang some lullabies and he fell asleep. his mother say even she has difficulties making him sleep. she say was very good. haha. he really cute seyy when he sleep. ui just dokong him at tepok and sing abit then he quiet and den sleep. normally he will cry if other ppl carry him. sometimes his mother carry him oso he cry. see i very pro. her mother say later december holidaes i go their house to jager. got the kakak five years old name is nadra. lol. but see ferst lor.
adam mother is my cousin lar. so paham paham jer lar. but she teacher.
den when we were in the room toking crap one of aunty terlanger the lauk container. den when my another aunty wanted to wipe it with tissue my mother say use towel. but my another one of the aunty gave roti kirai.she did not know the lauk tertumpah. she taught someone wanted roti kirai. so my aunty who was wiping the floor thought that the roti kirai was kain buruk den she go wipe the floor and realised it was roti kirai. haha.
i was rolling on the floor and crying. everybody was laughing and crying also. haha. funny like what sia.
so cute! haha
lol
dat all peeps.
good bye!


yesterday story telling!
they did a pretty good job.
thought they would have gotten like ferst or second.
but those judges!
irritating!
so along the way i was being crazy but in the school tried to act "garang"haha.

so the drama was all ok lar.
got this guy who like jathish but to me look cuter and less irritating.haha. oopsx)

azfar was being gay. as usual.
i was trying to freak ppl out by saying stuffs.

and today nth special
juz another dreaded day
had ccac meeting.
go home late again.
like the whole week.
irritating siol.
cannot rest.
but i am the one asking for this.
wanted to cut my hair but apparently no tyme lar.
so tomorrow going out with the four mats.
will update bout dat sooner if not later.

ok. some people really fuckers these days.
no wonder world is gonna end
fuckers like this exist.
bastard.
not happy den give attitude.
as if their behaviour very good.
as if their face very nice.
such assholes.
do YOU think you own this motherfuckin' world?!
buzz off lar. kanina as if i owe you big tyme izit?
not happy say it to my face lar .
show me that fuckin attitude.
you know what it looks like?
pure SHIT!

erm hello again.
in the morning PLANNED to meet hanafi at 7.15.
hah but was half an hour late. lol
sakit perut pe!

den ce lar no lit at all. cool sot
but the efffffingggg movie which is a total insult towards the good one.
the gerl in that show like one pampered and retarded gerl sia.
the gerls in my class are like too good to be compared to her sia.
see i compliment gerls. haha. lol
k den recess bla bla bla.

den the match.

i was screaming all the way man. loved it.
the last time i was this excited and anxious over something was during psle haha.
this match rocks. CONGRATULATION TO ALL OUR PLAYERS.

but those from other schools actually clapped when unity miss the free throw. kentot!
but all in all good job guys!





it makes me happy to see you happy.
to see you smiling.
glad that you are enjoying lyfe.
hope ur happiness won't end here.

my lyfe is currently suckish.
tomorrow going for story telling. but got ccac duty so i have to get replacements.
den i need to cut the grass on my head before silver wing.
need to study for alot of things and also homework.
and i am gonna have an appoinment with a........

haha. lol. but i hope u don't hate me.
really it hurts.
hope you have forgiven me.

Labels: i love ur sweet smile :D

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fightingCould it be that we have been this way beforeI know you don't think that I am tryingI know you're wearing thin down to the coreBut hold your breatheBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findYour impossible to findThis is not what I intendedI always swore to you i'd never fall apartYou always thought that I was strongerI may of failedBut I have loved you from the startOhhhhBut hold your breatheBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findIt's impossibleSo breathe in so deepBreathe me inI'm yours to keepAnd hold onto your wordsCuz talk is cheapAnd remember me tonightWhen your asleepBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findTonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findYour impossible to find

don't mind the lyrics in that form.

suddenly this song hit me and its lyke they read my mind.

Labels: you don't care anyway

erm. hey all.
i just realised how long i nvr update this blog.
i said i wanna change the skin ryte? but i have no clue whatsoever on how to do this crap.
someone help me?

erm ok let's see.
wednesday:
what happen ah?
i don't remember.

thursday:
did not come to school MC.
reason, you guys might know when you see my death certificate.
so i was at home trying to relax.
but keep on getting calls from mum and granddad. they were making sure i was alive.
then after answering a call i actually slept at the spot where i picked up the phone=.=

friday:
went back to school when i don't want to.
had lessons which were kinda interesting.
must make myself improve before its too late.
had training.
ok lar. had mass drill. fun.
funny i mean.
malas nak elaborate.

today:
morning went to school 7.40.
got ccac meeting but i left early to go to HQ for flying.
competitions coming.
wanna win this thing.
went to HQ with Tariq,Sarah,Alvin and Faris.
alot of unknown people also went there.
kinda suckish coz i really like the tyme when it was only us.
monkey-ing around.
well might as well enjoy lyfe instead of hating it.
though it sucks a whole lot!

i was watching oprah a few days back.
the only way you gonna make your lyfe a happy one is if you try.
surround urself with the happy moments,laughters and the best jokes or funny moments you can remember.
mix with people who make you smile.
though sometime you may feel hurt by their words, they are all you got.
so i really am trying to be a happy person for atleast until after the exams.

fasting month is coming. so are the exams.

bye!

Labels: smiling and laughing though it hurts.

hey people who inhabit this dying planet!

erm ..didn't know ppl read my blog. neither do i know that there are ppl who care. but may i know who you guys are? pls.

k so today went to mac before going to school to buy breakfast. haha long tyme seyy nvr sneak.

em den mr khoo gave back lit paper. good thing i never fail. could have done alot better just that my phrasing of words and sentences was crap. i know. even when i know the answer i will ryte rubbish.

when the answer suppose to be rats ryte? dunnoe how i go and put FROGS? those amphibians got into my head. uhhh.

den CE relx tyme.

recess den dunnoe what else lar.
after school also i dunnoe what to do so i just hang around with. dotz.

k i saw this chinese drama. dunno whether you ppl watch.


but i find it the sweetest thing.

the female tour guide bringing a group of couples who are suppose to be lovey dovey and stuffs.
but in the end she was crossed in her own love lyfe.
den this guys was also crossed in his love lyfe because the gerl was unfaithful.
then while on the way home somehow they were kidnapped. den some things happen.
den the guy wanted to sacrifice himself for the gerl.
but then both of them were tied up and were about to be killed.
but at that point on the guy proposed to the tour guide and she agreed.
then the police come and dey nvr die.
but they were seperated and when with their families. i gotta check out what happens tomorrow.
dats all.

Labels: write somthing here. haha

was supposed to go out mit me sedara
but cancel. shyt ah.
boring sey at home.
my sister is controlling the damn television.

dun care about my previous post.
it was not meant to get sympathy from anyone.
i just felt so lousy and wanted to relief my feelings.
this is the only way i can let out my feelings.
though the pain that i really feel can never be reflected in a mere post.
i dun have anyone i can really trust to share my problems.
de only ppl i culd trust was my primary school friends.
but they themselves have gone separate ways.
even though they are in the same school,
they are not together.
how sad. what if i were with them.
imagine that.
atleast if i were to face any problems in their school i wud have them.
and they wud not have gone different ways.
but now i feel i am suffering alone. i miss laughing my ass of at their sick and dirty jokes.
atleast they bring joy to my life.
they trust me.
i trust them.
look what has happened to me.
what has happen to them.
why the hell i join this cheapskate school.
i so regret it.
when i cry, they dun think that i am like a wimp or anything.
they console me. they are so the best human beings in my lyfe.
and hey why must you cry? this thing should not be hurting you at all.
you are having it your way.
you decided on how things shuld be.
i am not blaming you.
its just me.
i feel lousy.
i know you have a better lyfe.
so enjoy it.
i remembered how they actually shared their problems and horny jokes with me.
how ms tan is always biased and treated us so much better than the rest.
how the whole class motivated one another.
how they supported me and congragulated me when i was ferst in class.
hard to believe? i actually won over some people from the better classes. not the best classes but the better ones.
well thats lyfe for me.
good things always never last long.

so in the morning met up with sarah.

then her dad send us to HQ. thanks uncle!

we reached HQ and we were still early.
only the SJI people were there.
huhs. so we kinda slacked till about 10 plus.
den we go to the aeromodelling centre. khairul was weaker then hafnie. haha. klakar sot.
so we entered and got the things out.

we started flying.
actually just khairul.
when i wanted to fly the plane would not take off.
its either i am a bad pilot or the plane screwed up.
and there was only one good plane left. so that was it.
we were confined to the centre to repair those planes.
there were only fara, alan, khairul, hafnie,angel, sarah and me.
the rest were busy i guess.
and got some clts too.
after that we were on the grasspatch just waiting. there was only one plane and it had problems too. we could not do anything much about it. so sarah and me were singing dunno how many songs lar. it felt great. to b complimented by people . but thanks to sarah lar for boosting my morale. i dare say we sounded great.
so we were busy trying to fix the screwed up planes and our dear sarah and fara took a nap! -_-

den when they wake up straight away eat twisties. morover dey never invite the guys. we had to invite ourselves haha. sarah and me were singing our hearts out. heh. duet. some clt terdengar oso. paiseh sot!
so when we were almost going back we were told to do a set for ourselves. haish. so we did what we could. and we went off after that.
fara, sarah and me took train to lot one and then fara went home while sarah and me go eat at LJS. den went to look for sarah's sister berthday present.
den i went home. only to find out my mum went to the kubor without me. pissed off lar. i wanna see my granny. erghhh. den later went to expo. crappy but funny things.

then take taxi home the cost was like $34.45. fuck seh!
so watched tv a while and dhen here i am blogging about my day and you are reading it.


i cannot believe you could actually make me cry.
i dun blame you but,
i swear the pain i am feeling,
cannot be compared to what i have ever encountered in my lyfe.
i was listening to some songs which talked to me.
but i just dun understand why you would go to the extremes.
why are you doiing this to me.
i dun ask for your love.
i have never forced you have i?
neither am i very desperate for you.
i am just really upset and disspointed.
that i lost a friend.
someone i thought i could trust.

now i am not sure.
whether our friendship ever meant anything to you.
was your warmth all just and act.
i WAS happy at that time.
when you shared ur problems with me.
i was.
but now its as if nothing ever happened.
its like i am a complete stranger to you.
imagine how painful that would be.
i lost something i held close to my heart.
when my grandma passed away,
i had no mood to do anything.
i did not even want to come to school.
i wanted to quit everything.
but because i know i have friends hu do care.
frens like you.
i cried every night thinking about my grandma.
thinking about her cute smile and her sweet voice.
i wanted to give up on lyfe.
i wanted to join her.
she was the role model in my lyfe.
she suffered so much but never complained.
she even raised me until she became.
its just so hard to hold back my tears. i dun wanna let any of my family members to know i am this upset.
but i guess my grandmother now is looking down upon me. i am so ashamed to let her know that i cannot handle all this. but i really wanna meet her now. i want to join her.i need her to advice me.
pls give me the strength i need.
pray for me nani.
i am such a disgrace to you.
sorry for letting you down.
i hope to see you again nani.
i love you.

i am no ddespo. but the way you treat me hurts me.
you wun even talk to me.

Labels: i lost my hope.no more reason to live.

today whole day was so sucky. hated everything.
except when mr elfie came to teach us bio.
gosh he is damn funny.
look like my abang sedara by alot.
talk like him.
walk like him.
look at people also like him.
haha.
but some ass say he reminds them of me.
maybe true ah but i am not dat dramatic as him..
though i admit i am drama abit.
haiz.
hu knew being confidant would make me hurt my ownself.
well i guess you guys don't know that i feel very lousy.
i dun get what i want in lyfe and its like all the tyme.
so when i do achieve something i get really happy.
and i am sorry if that comes across as arrogance to some of you.
my lyfe sucks so when i do get something that actually is going my way,
i get excited,maybe too excited bout it.
when i get a chance i grab it. that is my only way to shine.
that was my mindset larh.
so sorry.
i feel so dumb.
maybe i shuld stop trying too hard larh.
i shuld not be to enthu.
well maybe i might not even want to try again larh.
what if i come across as arrogant?
i dun want you ppl to hate me.
i will try not to be so semangat anymore.
the more i try to get atleast some good things in my lyfe,
it always doesn't.

this is no longer a verge of breaking down.

not only have i been broken down but trampled upon and torn apart.

and for you. i will try my best to ask someone to change the blogskin .
if i can't then at most i will delete this blog. and do another one when i am free.
dun worry. i will do it asap.

oh and i have to go back to hq tomorrow for flying.
cca before ccac.
and i really dun know why am i trying.
seriously
give up already.
dun kill my own self.
it will be suicide.

sorry if i hurt you that much.
i swear i didn't mean to.
if only i knew what i did.
but its too late for regrets.
i know.
since what you are doing is what you think is the best.
thus let it be.
i don't wanna aggravate the situation.
since this is it.
i have nth left to say.

i hope you will enjoy your life without me to ruin it.
i would tell you this personally.
but u r avoiding me.
so this is the only way.
how pathetic.
i am sorry for ever being part of your lyfe.
but i have no control over tyme.
i would ask hanafi
to transport me back in tyme
change the moment where we ferst met.
change the way this sad story goes.
but hanafi is just imagining things.
and so am i.

goodbye. and sorry it ain't in malay.
i do not honour my promises.

Labels: this is the end of a tragic tale. and i am part of it.its reality.it hurts

hmmm. i suddenly want to post this in proper English.

haha. Let's get started!

I woke up at the normal time but my stomach cause me too much problem and decided to take a longer time today knowing i have tests coming up for the day. So i went out at 7. That is unacceptable according to my self expectation. I make it a point to leave at about 6.50. Laugh all you want. Tardiness is not in my vocabulary.

So then it was morning assembly. Falah gave a speech. Kudos to you. Not very long till its actually my turn. Stressing out here! hahs. then right after that it was Biology. The teacher never come. The class was rejoicing as they wanted to use the oppotunity to study for maths. I did not see the point of last minute things like that. If they had actually cared and bothered to put in effort in studying atleast the night before they would have understood and there would be no need to study like mad creature. But i got to admit the upcoming test tomorrow,Geography chapter 8 and 9 is really too much to study. No wonder bart was complaining.

Well, after that was P.E. We played basketball. Fun overall. sorry azfar for hurting your middle finger.(if your mind is corrupted then i know what you are thinking) i actually throw the ball to hard that i actually hurt his finger because he is that lousy at sports.

Then it was recess and when recess ended it was maths and i realised i forgot to buy my flexible curve. haha. then i rushed down to get one. it was 4 BUCKS! what a rip-off.So had my test. i understood the questions. An improvement compared to when i was in that class. But i think there might be some calculation errors. So after that was history and watch some videos. Both educational and funny ones. Then we had a pop quiz. i think i smoked that.Then it was mother tongue. good thing cikgu postponed the test. Actually i study already. Quite confident of acing it but pitied my other friends so begged for them.

Then after school went to canteen and back to class. there was no remedial so Hanafi ,Khairi and I were crapping in class. Then i went to library because Hanafi wanted to use the computer. So i decided to do my Geography homework with atiqah. then at about 5 we zoomed back home in the oh-so-slow-as-well-as-unstable-bus.

That was all. this was one of the boring days.




ps: you were avoiding me today . and you are probably going to avoid me forever.Not talking to me.
fine. hate me that much huh? what? this is it? you going to ruin our friendship because of this. I did whatever i could have done on my part. but you choose to remain hard headed and unforgiving.
As if the whole damn thing was my fault. IF for some reason you thing that the whole thing was my fault and you hate me or us that much the tell us . and by avoiding me won't solve the problem. because if you hate me or us that much then just say it. to think i actually ................................. i am just speechless.



bye bye. enjoy the song!


how stupid u think i am...i know it wasn't just me. but cant i just apologize on my behalf? is that wrong? is that a sin? ughhh.!
gosh! what is wrong with u. why u gotta be so hard.and of course i was not blaming it all on you..its the other gerls oso. when azfar called one of u den one of u guys said going to go down so we waited thinking it was gonna be awhile. but it was long so we went up to look for you guys.















why does this thing have to happen? both party did wrong stuff but why you gotta be so hot headed and unforgiving.

i gonna do another post...
hey i so did not insult you people and call you all sundal ryte?i think azfar did.

well i hate gerls but i still think of you guys as friends. even my primary school bestfrens were gerls. raihana and dina. ugghhh and a gay adli...lol not true...he is straight.

and we wait for you gerls coz we actually care. and we invite you guys to have fun together. when azfar go say all that coz he was playing around. i don't really mind waiting for you ppl. but the fact that after we wait for you guys den you guys dun wanna wait when i was looking for clothes. that was when i was pissed.
if we DID NOT CARE ABOUT YOU PEOPLE . WE WOULD HAVE JUST LEFT. ITS BECAUSE WE CARE AS YOU ARE OUR FRENS THUS WE WAIT. den you guyslike that seyy.pastu kiter nak masok kedai baju korang dah jalan sampai kat maner tah.

abeh kater kalau tk suker jgn invite? KITER INVYTE PSL KORANG KAWAN KITER LAR .
we even wait for you ppl and u guys cannot wait for us for a while. dat was why we angry.
when we wanted to watch movie you guys say dun want. so we dun mind lar. den you guys wanted to go marina square. even when i don't know where that is i still go. even let that ass got us lost. is waiting for us so difficult? all of us yang gi sembahyang dunnoe the way. den korang yang tahu tk nk tunggu sekejap. we said to wait ryte.
IF WE DID NOT CARE WE WUD NOT HAVE WALKED SO FAR WITH A BLIND ASS GUIDING US AND SESAT INSHOPPING CENTRE TO LOOK FOR YOU GERLS.

its because we treat you people as frens. YES I GENERALLY HATE GERLS but i forgave you and wanted to have fun. well i did at some points. but just looking at ur sour faces brings me down abit.

if i got do anything wrong to you den sorry. but you guys jalan sampai maner sey kiter cari-cari tk dapat.
and the bad thing that happen to you. sorry i culd not have prevented that.
but since i feel its my fault coz if not you would not have even bought that thing i am gonna bring you out someday to anywhere you want to buy you a new one. but my budget $50 only. i promise. but that is if you want. and how long you take to find that shoe oso i won't mind.

i really thought i culd spend tyme with you but niwaez...i am sincerely sorry if i hurt your feelings.i even walked in a place which was like alien to me. coz i told you i had someone in mind and it was you. I AM NOT GAY! its just that alot of gerls have been ruining my lyfe. and my previous post for today is not bout you. k.

i am sorry i didn't mean to hurt you. put it at my blog now to declare. i will go out wit you sumday to buy it. but if you really hate me so much and think that i am gay and dun wanna talk to me than there is nothing i can do.

Labels: i really hope you forgive me because if u don't then there is no way for me to say ilu

olla!

so let me write bout yesterday kae?

yesterday woke up early not coz i was force to but because i just did. den i com all the way to about 10.30 den i bath XD. my sister was havin her tuition and i had to wait until the tutor go home which was supposed to be at 11.30 but he drag so i just go lar. den i reach cck mrt. so since i was abit early i decided to roam lot 1 by myself ferst. so jalan2 den look at tyme already 12.01.haha one minute late. so i go in to cck mrt again. got call from khairi. he was still at home. got call from aliff he was still at home also. wth ryte? the gerls were punctual. see? vain boys...gerls also can make it ontyme. shame2. erghh...so we waited until about 12.30. F ryte?

so after that we take MRT to bugis. the gerls got down at bugis while the guys go beach road. me and khairi wanted to go buy beret. den we bought the beret. khairi and i were like finally the real things...normally we buy and always we get cheated...haha either the npcc kind or somthing like that la. but this is the real thing..cool man. after that we had our lunch there...and met up with the gerl at bugis...they make us wait for dunnoe how long sia. so we went up and look for them at the neoprint place. den we walk around the place and i wanted to see some clothes but the gerls told me to hurry up. dey made us wait for dunnoe how long coz they take picture can ah?! %*@$%!#$
after that we go to bugis street. i find that place very creepy. the dudes were bugging me cause that was my ferst tyme dere....asses!
then we wanted to go to marina square. so we take MRT to raffles city. which i think was the wrong place lar. den aliff nak solat. so all the guys plus nora went to the freaking cool underground masjid. masjid moulana. (nth to do wit sarah)haha.airconditioned somemore leh syiok ryte.
when we solat azfar become imam. he irritating sak. tengah sembayang boleh using belakang dgn muker step cute. ya allah. aku sampai terketawa sak...
den we sit there for a short while and we saw cikgu irwino( is dat ryte?)
cool sey..
den we wanted to go to marina square from there. the act smart ass pretended he knew the damn ass way and made us lost. fcuk ryte? uh!
den we walked all the way from there to esplanade sak. after dat we saw marina square. he made us turn dunnoe how far. stupid shyt!
my ferst tyme dat close to esplanade and ferst tyme to marina square.. huh got lost in there looking for the other gerls. they were playing hide and seek or something. uh lame. wasted my life. den we go dinner den go home....
overall it was fun ah. got alot of jokes.
but someone restricted me to tell them. hahaha. ok i won't...see i very nice.!

den today was very boring ah.
den on the way home somebody gave me that buay song look.
i was like so irritated lar. as if i do wrong things to her. she joke about me and talk behind my back can ah?! irritating. insult people until like what. i feel like going to your face and say that you are not perfect dammit! look at urself lar. dammit. as if you bloody good like that. i cannot believe i thought u were nice. well i guess that people change! i never even say anything bad about u at ferst sak. then u go insulting and gossping. no wonder ur frens say that you really kpo one. i nvr believe them at ferst but now i sure do. let me tell you something lar...u are not so good urself. and if u wanna say anything come say to my face ah. as if your mother pay me to make u happy. i seriously fcuking piss of with ppl like u lar. u insult me and made fun of me like dunnoe what. den now u act like i owe you. if u dare say anything bad about me let be ryte to my face IF U GOT THE BLOODY GUTS AH! u dun dare den better dun say anything. wah act big as if i owe u money or what..giving me the buay song look. sial ar...irritating sey. i nvr do anything wrong to u ryte? den u gossip until dunnoe like what. u torture me ryte? u better make sure i die. if not i won't be responsible for my actions later on. and yes this is a threat for you if i find out you gossip bout me.

hellos people!

i am in sucha good mood! (atleast 4 now)
i love u all!

wanna know why? i know u don't but its my blog so i will just sae anywae...haha


i just came back from a damn fun shopping spree!damn fun

things i bought:
1 pierre cardin polo tee
1beverly hills polo club round neck tee.
1 beverly hills polo club bermudas
1 hang ten bemudas
1 pair of kappa socks
1 pair of kappa shoes.


just imagine lar all this things...rocks man...and got good discount. got 20% discount leh...fun siol

actually suppose to use my money to buy but in the end i just forked out 50 bucks and my mother paid for the rest...wow.

so today never go kubur coz yesterday go already..

ok so tomorrow probably going to bugis with azfar,hadi,khairi and aliff...anione nk join ? if want then let azfar or me noe ok...we also will be going to beach road and maybe esplanade.

ok so toodlez!

about yesterday. i woke up kinda late.

but as usual i come to school on tyme unlike some people...haha.

i seriously cannot remember anything dat happened in class.

coz i was very very very extremely damn irritatingly sleepy. my mood was like irritating.
oh wait. i remember something...i was pissed of with a bunch of trio bitches and sluts. who apparently do not bath when they come to school. and they HAVE THE BLOODY CHEEKS to blame me. fcuk! dey didn't even know what was going on, and they walked like some big fcuks and blamed me.i was like dammit. gerls again! fcukers! so i let out a few words which were harsh but i knew i could have done better. but i had said i was feeling sleepy so i was not up to my best.

hah!

den i went for the training. its like the whole week i was super duper busy. i come back home from school everyday and its already like 8.30 liddat. and i have to get the school uniform ready,my ncc uniform ready,my homework done,my school bag packed and lastly to bath. so just think how shitly tired i was. but it paid off. unlike some people who didn't do their homework and got a so called after school session with the teacher.haha. he was forced to go coz he is the type dat always nvr finishes his work. those in class will know. later he will give some stupid freaking lame excuse like i lost the wksht. haha. and when he is late for school he will give some seriously stupid lame story dat made bart,hanafi and me laugh our ass off. so he said his bicycle chain broke(not the first time he said it) den his keys fell into the drain and the his pants was dirty so he had to go back and change. and then he wanted to act smart.

when hanafi and i were discussing about the geography test ryte, we said that the test was kinda tough. but that loser said it was easy.. ended up we passed and he failed....u shuld have seen his face. the I KNOW EVERYTHING face when he got no clue. and when bart made a speech and said that abraham lincoln was the 16th president of the U.S. and hanafi said it was not...he acted like one big fcuk know it all and said it was. when in fact it was not. so when bart told him that he made a mistake and it was the wrong thing den he say ...i dunnoe ...i was just saying.... hanafi , azfar and me clearly saw that he was acting like a smart person and said that he was ryte and now he saying otherwise...immediately after he went away hanafi started cursing...azfar and i were like so freaking disgusted..what an ass! huh. and some blind ppl actually called him modest.
would a modest person act like a freak like what he does.
so some jokes we compiled(about him) :
the word:tablet his pronounciation:teh-belet.
the word:speculate his pronounciation:spare-chulate..
the word: history his pronounciation: his-toe-ry
there are more but i'll save it for another day. i but this is already stupid enough to make you laugh your guts out.
want to know why i hate him,despise him,get irritated by his fuctup face?
firstly,last year he spat in my water bottle.
secondly, he made my bestfren turn against me when it was his efffffinnnnggg! fault.but now the bestfren knows that he is an ass.
thirdly,he talks behind my back.
fourth,he pretends he is some smart person and acts pitiful and modest . SERIOUSLY ACT!
fifth,he thinks he can get whatever he wants.
sixth,he did something wrong to my fren.
seventh,we told him off and he promised not to do it again but he did.
eighth,he has done all this and he thinks he is perfect.
ninth,when i just got back at him a little bit for what he has put me through, he go act emo and make it look like its my fault.hey ass its just a little bit. if i give all that he did...i think he turn into moron.
tenth. he doesn't study for tests and always lie to hanafi and me and say that he does and while we are recaping in class he will interupt and act smart.
eleventh:when there were group projects throughout last year and begining of this year before helm,he never contribute and when it was time to pass up he would always pretend like he did the work. so when we told him off, again he made a promise which he clearly did not live up to.he said he would do all the upcoming projects. which he did not. fazillah did most of it. and when we had meetings he wud not show up.only when we go sungei buloh coz to him its an outing kinda thing.
twelve: hanafi and i ask him do atleast some, den he say he got alot of things. fcuk! he thinks that he is the only one.
thirtheen. so we were so pissed of and hanafi ask him to stayback to do it coz he has been saying that that he was busy the previous days and he wud do it today but he go call his mother,ryte infront of me and tell her he needed to stayback because i forced him to.he blatently lied infront of us. dammit!he used my name in vain.fcuk ass! so ended up i had to do it.
fourteen: hanafi did the d&t product model until donno how much and he lost it together with his sketchbook. and they had to re-do everything from scratch with materials other groups did not want anymore.imagine how flared up i was when hanafi told me that.
fifteen: told by hanafi that he wears the same uniform for a week and kills us with his odour.
sixteen: he thinks that he looks cute.
seventeen :he was supposed to bring my art things which he kept but he did not.
eighteen: he dared to say i was DISORGANIZED. azfar, hanafi and i wanted to f him upside down sial! so what if he can keep his bag neat.? does he even do his work. or study or do the projects. kimak dier sak! i do my work and pack my bag everyday. and i study for upcoming tests. and i bother to do the work if i forget. when he forgets , he just buat bodoh!
nineteen: he self-proclaims that people like him.
twenty: while he was liking this gerl,he went flirting around with another.


there are more but i am too tired to list them out.


and for you. i really-really love you. i reeeeeeeeeeaaaalllllyyyyy do. i have been too busy and tired.but seriously u piss me off. the way u treat me is like i am some kind of pest. for no apparent reason you said"go die la" . that just sliced ryte through me.i wud rather you torture me physically den mentally or verbally. go take a knife and kill me if you want me to die. if i culd die in your hands dat wud be great. how do i confess my love for you when you are always so temperamental. first ur nice and the next moment ur snapping at me. i do have feelings. i really care for you. how i wish you wud understand my predicament.i really want to lend you my shoulders and let you lean on them. i really wish dat i culd be the first one u wud come to if u had a problem. how i wish u wud trust me to be ur listening ear, the one to wipe away ur tears and put a smile on ur face and fill each of ur day our sweet & precious moments. i wanna carry you around in my arms and run around like a mad man and repeat this words: i love you and i will always be there for you.................................
but now it seems like you hate me. you just glare at me and won'teven say hi.
i would pass by you and ur friends and you wuld act like we are complete strangers.
i wait for you to say hi to me on the msn but its just so quiet.
is this it?
is this how it ends.
i really have faith it won't.
i will be waiting.
for
u
to cool
down.


gd bye ...

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i am now in a effing bad mood. if u cannot stand harsh languages or if you think u might have offended me den its best you dun read.ok? so if u somehow feel offended by this post is probably coz u did something wrong to me den u guilty so NOT MY PROBLEM! u dun have to read..understand ah?

k so today i was already bad mood in the morning. body aching coz of some reason. and the ass people in lrt as usual were inconsiderate. so i went to school lar. den got to class no one in class yet. i was actually supposedly late.well thats what i thought but i was the first one to reach.

den the rest of the day was ruined by the same ass bitches.

seriously ,who do you gerls think you are? the bloody whole day of mine were ruined by gerls.including my lil sis hu's another bitch. one of the gerl scream at my friend and a teacher was there. f u lar! u are not so good yourself ok? who are you to scream at my friend like dat? as if in other classes you behave? slut! even your friends are talking in class and disrupting the class lar dammit! then another thing. another gerl made a comment about me. dat really brought down my mood to a whole new level of low. hu the hell do you think you are? snapping at me. DO YOU PAY ME TO MAKE YOU HAPPY? NO RITE? so keep your comments to yourselves..please. i was in a fucking bad mood sak. if i had the choice,i wud go there and shout ryte in ur ass face man. but i know if i shout u will bloody hell start crying lar..damn you. i didn't even disturb you sey! seriously lar go to hell lar. u think i keep quiet dat means i scared of you ok? its because if i lost control of myself,u YOU WUD HAVE CRIED. another case. some people were joking around. but seriously lar your jokes were too far. u guys cannot think or what. i was just smiling it away. and the person hu did it the most was yet again another gerl.

see...you understand y i really hate gerls. good thing i never start about my sis. if not it wud be a nvr ending list.

i am really pissed off.
i dun even know why i even try.
seriously i hate it.
demoralising me.
when i am already down and out.
you guys still keep on kicking.
why?
i feel really stupid ,sacrificing so much.
y do i even try?



hey ya'll

miss me?
i noe u do...ryte?no hu i am talkin bout?
no? nvm...

haha.

and so my day was not bad. lessons were really dry but i was all ryte..
after school did alot of exercising things...

firstly i played frisbee. was exciting in a way coz we were playing a game. the competetiveness in me was unleashed. haha.after dat i wanted to watch the NDP rehearsals. but no one was there to watch it with me. haiz. den i went to i-care room to look if anyone was inside. but i found khairi at the vending machine. so i went to the gym with him. nick was there too.(aisyah,its not nick jonas haha) then i thought, since i was in the gym might as well i do some things. so firstly i did some weight lifting. then i went on to do knee raise thing. then i did the leg raise thing. and then i did some pull-ups. which i enjoyed very much. then after that i played soccer with khairi,nick and some other people lar. too many to list.

i really missed playing soccer. i bet u ppl didn't know this. i was a soccer playing kinda guy in primary school. i played soccer like almost evryday. and anytime i could. recess, after school and before fetching my sister from school(that was kinda how i lost weight that year...ahem) and yah. so believe it or not! i dun care.

so while i was playing and having lotsa fun, sarah came to the court and asked me to watch the NDP rehearsals with her. but i told her to wait..really was in the game..so fun. i have NO IDEA why i stopped playing when i entered secondary school? but its fun to start again. but i cannot play everyday or as often as how i use to. too busy these days. dun even have tyme for myself. i really lack sleep.

hey you. y u gotta be so cute and adorable and mesmerising and beautiful and...wait too far.haha. why you gotta do this to me?why do you get my hopes up ,only to let it fall on the cold hard floor.did i do something wrong to you dat i don't know?is that it? are you getting back at me? but what wrong did i do to you? why you gotta be so nice to me and then suddenly snap at me? isit moodswing or sumting. urgh. y.i really hate you for doing all this to me. i really do. whether its intentional or unintentional,only you know. but i really dun understand myself. i know i can't blame u fully. coz u nvr ask me to fall for you , but i did. see..i am going crazy. i hate you.i am trying to get you out of my mind. seriously. i dun want this to affect our friendship. i dun wanna lose you.but i cannot change how i feel. i really do love you.


i gotta get my uniform ready for tomorrow.
astalavista my babes!

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hey babes!

see..i am updating it already ...cool ryte? i noe..(:

so sport fiesta:
i woke up at 5a.m. in e mornin! dammit...but i was still kinda late to meet up wit my frenz..hahs!
so i juz met em CCK mrt.
den went to school...saw some orienteering ppl...congrats guys...good job!
den we took attendance...en my mood was still down coz of something..
en weee boarded the bus to go to CCAB...guess what? i was wondering where that place was ,when i have been to that place many time during my primary school days..haha..
i use to have my tennis tournaments there..ironic ain't it?
so we set up the soccer pitch and then some music was playing so john and i was lip syncing and pretended we were having a concert...it felt great..haha! juz then ppl started coming already....

so some opening ceremony yadayada when on and it all started....i was not in the umpiring comittee so i was kinda free...so i walked around with hanafi when mr chan told us to help him carry cartons of water to the tentage...was quite far and the things were really heavy even though we had that trolley thing...even hanafi couldn't push it..so moi did it...but ended up twisting my thumb...

hahs! i got the red cross to rub some ointment on it...i had fun playing the trolley thing wit hanafi....he was aspiring to be a first aider...and i was the casualty...i know cute ryte?
haha..(prasan)

den i walk around some more....talk to ppl...so i played for my class for a while since i had to play.... bet you all did not know this....i played soccer in primary school with my frens almost every day..even when i was feftching my sister....i stopped when i entered secondary school..no idea why? so chen lu was amazed when i actually did something cool..haha..i really miss playing with those primary school assholes that i call frens...

well after that i chatted with some people...it was very hot though.. drank like 5 bottles of water and surprisingly did not even step into the toilet....i think i know why...i sweated it all out...and jaycee gave me a bottle of h2o for free...credits to you!

i planned an outing and thought you were gonna go but you did not...i talked to you and u brought my hopes up.you made me feel that you cared about me.guess i was wrong.you like the attention that you get from all those guys that likes you.that makes you a bitch.knwing all this i try my very best to forget you.but i cannot. i know that all you do is hurting me. i know.i really do.and i hate you for that.i seeriously hate you.i don't know why but alongside that feeling,i still love you.i just dun get it.why is it that i hate you so much but i still love you.you tell me..you remember those sweet moments we had? and there was once during the fiesta when you swiped something away from my face..?i felt great. you are giving me hope dammit. if u dun like me den stop giving me false hope..i love you and i dun understand why?i try to forget you..i do..but i just can't. when u smile it just melts me.i hate you for that coz i know u are a flirt. even ur best fren said she pitied anyone who liked you coz u r the type of person who flirts around and toy with feelings..i hate...but i love you.
bye peeps!

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that was actually aisyah and her horny-ness(:
credits to her for helping me create this things u r viewing.
i will try to update frequently.
but no guarentee.
coz i am a busy man.
ok .
TILL NEXT TYME

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